Mom and Healer
BA Developmental Psychology 1997
Licensed Massage Therapist 2000
Reiki Mastership 2005
ERYT500 with Yoga Alliance 2009
Contemporary Cupping Method 2015
300hr Vesselify School of Yoga 2021
I am a healing craft. One who understands that after decades spent in a victim roll, I chose the parents that brought me into this world, which was not an easy childhood to survive. They were divorced before I turned 2, and by 9, I was traumatized by abuse. A dark beginning, riddled with neglect, I questioned everything, perpetually asking, why me? In my Roman Catholic family I denounced God, believed in nothing, and struggled to find myself and any meaning to this human existence. I felt like the black sheep that didn’t belong while trapped in my own thoughts. Like I was lost at sea, afraid of wanting to die, or worse to live each day barely afloat. Bobbing up and down, like an old, weathered buoy, tethered to the back corner of my mind. I felt alone for most my life. Dubbed shy and quiet, a wall flower adorned for my beauty. I hated every compliment my Mom was so pleased to receive about me, which continued to fuel the insecurity within, as I struggled to understand who I was beyond my looks. I preferred the company of animals over people, I was lucky to spend lots of time with horses, who taught me the importance of trust and the subtleties of energy.
In adolescence things got way worse before better. In 1993 as I was preparing to graduate high school, I met a boy (who I later married, then divorced) who saw my light and encouraged me to shine. He intuitively knew, and deeply cared, that something big was broken. I fell hard and fast in love with him, and with his support and guidance, I broke my silence. Standing in my truth sparked the beacon to brighten, and illuminate my Soul’s journey. Things started falling into place and my path began to unfold in front of me as I begun to heal the past. With talk therapy, meditation, yoga and a lot of time connecting with Nature, these practices gave me faith and hope that something Divine does exist, but unlike the God my family believed in. I came to understand that God exists in me and in everything. I feel fortunate to have grown up near Long Island Sound where I would sit and gaze over the ever expanding blue, where water meets the sky, and feel peace while connecting to something greater than myself. Communing with Nature, my new Church, I could feel the warmth and glow from the depths of my center, that beacon of light continually call to me.
I barely survived high school and by the grace of God made it to college. In 1997 while finishing up my Bachelor’s Degree, pressured to declare a major in order to graduate on time, I was able to choose Developmental Psychology. I unknowingly acquired enough credits having enjoyed learning about the brain, psyche and human development. Graduating on time was important for the sole purpose of following aforementioned boy. There were some big hurdles and challenges as I put my life on hold to be with him. It was during that year that I learned how to be independent from my family, but then dependent on him, aimlessly following expectations of me, and adhering to the pressures of societal norms. I had forgone finding my own dream to be the other half of his. I worked in Physical Therapy as an Aid to several PT’s and met a woman who would change my life, and the course I was on, in a profound way. She was a Massage Therapist and shared her journey which ignited my passion for alternative healing. Back then it wasn’t a popular career and accredited schools were limited, that is how I (and aforementioned boy) landed in Boulder Summer of 1998. I didn’t have the means to enroll in massage therapy school until working 2 years at a desk job. Hating every second in my cubicle, I found solace in saving money while balancing the grind with fun on my snowboard, hiking, rock climbing, and doing a ton of yoga in the majestic foothills of the Rocky Mountains that were my new home and one that stole my heart for 12 years. I graduated from BCMT (Boulder College of Massage Therapy) in 2000. Its world renowned 1000 hour program, coupled with a consistent yoga and meditation practice, and becoming a Reiki Master, all furthered my healing, Releasing old beliefs and my diminished self worth, I started following my inner knowing. As I released more of the trauma from my body, assimilated the emotions that surfaced, a new world opened up and I knew I wanted to help others in this way.
These methods lit up my dharma and helped me digest my life experiences as part of the universal plan for my evolution. Every challenge, struggle, and fight we face makes us stronger and more prepared for the life we are destined to live. I have been training my whole life to be this vessel to healing. Through my combined methods and experiences, I am well equipped to guide others home to themselves. When we know ourselves in this deep way, we find a better relationship with our breath and our energy. Where we are imbalanced to access the root of our physical and emotional pain, not only healing ourselves, but our relationships, our life, and even the world!